Sasha Bates is a psychotherapist specialising in grief, trauma and PTSD. When her husband dies suddenly and she is plunged into the messy reality of shock, anger and denial, does her theoretical knowledge help her at all? In a searingly honest memoir covering the first terrible year of loss, the author creates some perspective from amidst the depths of her pain with insights into psycho-therapeutic theory, offering raw and moving descriptions of how grief feels from the inside alongside the theories that her training taught her about this heart-rending process.